I Just Need to Get This Out

I can't stop crying. I just can't believe that my sister, who acted as a mother during my childhood while my mother was drinking, is leaving for Santa Barbara in the fall... We're best friends and I feel like she's just abandoning me... She always helps me with whatever I need, whether it's math or boy troubles, she's always there for me. I love her and now I don't get to see her everyday. Just the thought of not being able to see her and talk to her everyday makes me cry and makes me want to puke. I don't want to be stuck here... Sure, I have my brothers but they don't care about me. They just care about girls. My sister and I are incredibly close and I just want to know this: Who am I going to watch Eureka with? Who's going to sit through a cheesy chick-flick and cry with me? Who am I supposed to record "Cougar Town" for? What am I going to do without her? I'll always feel like a chunk of me is missing and I can't stand it. I just can't... And that's only part of the problem.... :/